DisconnectBespoke

The phone is down, no lifeline today. Just me again. It seems now as though every other day it is down. It’s melting; the coming of spring.

Mud season is in earnest on the roads now, but it’s still weeks away for the yards and gardens and even further out for the woods.
I’m glad for the rain really. There is the hope of washed away snow, but the gray does nothing to improve moods today.

Turn up the lights, even though it is day, to try to chase the gray thoughts away. Peg up a bright yellow post-it note in your head; happiness is a choice. Every day.

For breakfast serve fruit and leftovers from dinner, Swedish meatballs.

Steep a pot of chamomile. Breathe. Breathe. Breathe deep.

Try to remember to take a moment to privately smile when one of the kids describes someone as having an “inquisitive nose”. Let them spend the morning drawing out Quidditch plays, with double-wide sheets of paper sprawling across the table. Fashioning black rimmed glasses out of paper with lenses pilfered from broken flashlights. The little one off to the side, gluing together tiny strips of paper. Perhaps there will be lessons later. When I can be fully present.

Try a little yoga, just for a minute or two (breathe. breathe. breathe deep.)

The sleep that alludes at night could so easily be over-taken at day. If only. If only.

Don’t sit and stare too long, letting the familiar gauzy curtain settle thickly about everything. Get up! Move around. Shake it free. Don’t get bewitched by the smoke curling out the window; swirling, curving, dispersing. Pull in, pull back, focus. Don’t get lost and drift away.

Dream of sewing the sun.

Go wandering about in the birch scented mist

(breathe. breathe. breathe deep.)

7 thoughts on “Disconnect”

Carolyn March 12, 2009 at 2:40 am

What a beautifully written post, and some lovely photos. My heart goes out to you. Greyness is the worst of all, isn’t it.
Melanie March 12, 2009 at 8:27 am

This is beautiful. And I can relate so well!
taimarie March 12, 2009 at 8:53 pm

Breathing deep with you over here, mama.
Jenna aka Town&Country Mouse, formerly Citygirl March 12, 2009 at 10:45 pm

Namaste
Lizz March 13, 2009 at 3:16 am

What wonderful poetry and pictures to go with!
Paula March 13, 2009 at 5:38 pm

I love this post!
Annie March 15, 2009 at 12:47 pm

Oh how beautiful- your words and pictures!

7 thoughts on “Disconnect”

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