This has not been an easy chapter in my family’s life. Let’s just say that I’m keeping my trusty bottle of motherwort tincture close at hand.
~On our way to look at a house~
But as I well know, it’s so very important for me to remain calm. I need to be able to focus and be clear headed enough to know how and what we need to get us through. I also need to stay peaceful enough to be able to hold the space for my children during this turbulent time. And so I’m taking the time to seek little bits of comfort here and there. Just little things that make a difference in my outlook and emotional state. Comfort these days is coming in many strange and sundry forms…
- big pots of tea to sip, rooibos chai being this weeks drink of choice
- trying (but usually failing) to go to bed early
- winding big skeins of yarn and letting the rhythm be a soothing balm in an otherwise busy day
- reading ‘Little Women’; I like simple, old fashioned homey stories and I gravitate towards the likes of Louisa May Alcott or L.M. Montgomery for there tranquil domestic scenes, when I’m feeling anything but tranquil.
- Taking the time to pack my work basket with just the right knitting project before each and every long car ride. Something small, portable, low on frustration and high on near instant gratification. This way I get to keep my hands busy, find time to create and accomplish something at the same time.
- taking deep, deep breaths of fresh air
- taking the time to try to laugh and smile and appreciate my beautiful family
I actually have oodles, yes oodles, of knitting to share with you, just a deficiency in pictures, but I’m sure I’ll remedy that sooner or later. As for everything else, we’re just taking it all one day at a time.
I have 3 little ones of my own (ages 9, 7, and 4), but I also watch a 4 year old during the school year, and a 15 month old all the time. I've watched the toddler since he was 6 weeks old. Now that he is so mobile, I find that all I can really get done during the day is some handwork, and things that I can drop at a moments notice. And I find myself thinking of you, with all of your projects. I'm finding that the projects, finished or not, help me remember the day to day moments of life better – "Oh I was working on that when one of the kids did this" or I was working on this when we went there.
Just started reading your blog last week and your posts are just beautiful. Your sadness comes through clearly, but your optimism and seemingly endless attempts to keeps yourself calm and positive for you adorable kids and your own wellness is encouraging and just plain beautiful! Best of luck to you in your searching – I hope you find exactly what your family needs right now:)
I know just how you feel! My life lately has been full of stress and anxiety! I want you to know that I will keep you in my prayers. Try to relax and remember that nothing lasts forever and good times are bound to return! Love Kate
Oh (((hugs))) to you, Melody!
my thoughts are with you. i'm glad that you are making an effort to appreciate the brighter things in life as well, despite the difficult situations life has presented you. best wishes.
Sending you lots of calm, peace and comfort. Our life isn't quite so busy, but it is enough so that it can be a struggle to remain calm for my girls. Also praying you find the right place and the right price very, very soon for all of your sakes.
First off, I hope your cousin is doing better and I'm sorry about your kitty.
I told my husband I wish we were independently wealthy after reading your post about your home. I have been following your story since the "wee one" was born and fell in love. I found your site by googling MCS blogs (we also had to leave our home that made our family sick…from fuel oil that had leaked under our home). We were lucky in the fact that we didn't own it but it still changed our lives due to the poisoning.
I wish there was a way to help you guys out. Is it too late on the house? My husband even offered to come and help finish your new home!
Is it too late? Our email is RSeib44725@bellsouth.net. We live in NC (husband is former dairy farmer that recently sold out so has time on his hands to help…especially a MCS family as sweet as yours because we know what it is like!).