I’m still here. I don’t think I want to give up the blog entirely, I’m just reassessing, trying to figure out what role maintaining this space plays in my life right now. For one thing, I think in the future I’ll be posting less, maybe one or two posts a week instead of five or six. But like I said, I don’t know quite where I’m going just yet.
Sleep has actually been one of many things that’s been keeping me away. As a life-long night owl, I’ve been working hard to switch my rhythms. Early to bed and early to rise. It really suits our life so much better and I’m finding it suits me as well. I really can’t quite describe how pleasant it is to wake up, and be ok with being awake, rather then forcing myself out of bed because the children are getting up and feeling achy and miserable and somewhat resentful.
Tonight I’m sitting up with a sick baby hitched to my back, to keep her upright and breathing freely. Soon I’ll try to lay us both down, but she hasn’t really slept well in so long, I want her to get some rest first. I thought I would check in while I have the chance.
~My favorite pie pan developed a crack and I refused to let it go. A couple of weeks ago I transplanted some sedum into it. It’s filling in so nicely! Sedum is accommodating like that.~
We’re still settling in. Still trying to get plants in the ground. Still trying to get rooms painted. Still searching through boxes for various things. Today was our first day of “school” and it went fabulously (the extra effort of juggling that and the sad, clingy, baby aside. poor tiny girl!).
~goldenrod for our tables on top of oak leaves for our dye pot~
I feel like a bit of a sell-out for loving our new house that’s meant to look like an old house better then our old house that was actually old. I can’t help it really. It may have less character, but it’s just so easy. I mean, for one thing there are the closets! Do you have any idea how long it’s been since I’ve really had closets?!? Don’t get me started on the closets…. I think everyone in real like would like me to just shut up about them please. It’s more then just closets, as exciting as they are, everything is just so much less work (if I ever get my hands on the inventor of the laundry chute, I tell you, he/she is in for one big sloppy kiss) and it’s all just so comfortable and pleasant and I’m very, very happy to be here.
I’m glad you are here. And I think you are wonderful too.
My grandpa’s house had a laundry chute, the house my dad grew up in, it was fascinating. And I understand your closet happiness.
I am happy for you and your new home!
I’m going through the not enough sleep to blog thing right now too… so I’ve also posted a bit less lately, but it seems okay. Hope your baby feels better soon!
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hehe…the laundry chute! Yeah, those were good times…. I think we got things really stuck in there once that my Dad had to drop one of his weights down on the top just to get things pushed through to the basement. Good times!
I am so glad you are still blogging. I have just stumbled upon your beautiful blog and it is so inspiring! Sometimes as a busy mother who is trying to make most things by hand, it is so nice to know that there are others out there doing the same!
Thank you for deciding to stay…I SO love your blog, BUT understand the time constraint of keeping it up. Family and yourself first and THEN, updates. Just go with the flow and see how it fits in w/ your life. Take care.
I’m so glad that the new house is working out for you. I totally understand the closet thing too!
I maintain that I will either be moving into your cedar closet or your basement very shortly. But you’ve got so many closets now i am figuring you can just use one to store friends, right?
hoping your sweet mairi is feeling better soon!!!
i sometimes dream of closets… do you have any tips on shifting rhythms to become an early morning riser? i have a similar problem. i end up staying up doing things, even though i am tired, because it is the only time i am alone…. but i pay for it in the morning. i think i would be more present for the whole day, even if i don’t have any alone time while the kids are so young.
ceclilia- yes, that is exactly the vicious cycle that I always get caught in. In the past it wouldn’t have been odd for me to stay up until 3 or even 4 in the morning trying to get things done. I’ve tried to alter this off and on for a decade now, with varying degrees of success, if you can call any of it success. This time the shift has come easily and naturally and I’m still in a bit of awe about it being that simple. Honestly, I credit the house. Two houses ago, our room had lots of windows, but we lived in the middle of the woods and the sun didn’t make it up over the trees until late in the day. Our last bedroom had one small window that was also treed in. In this house our bedroom is light and bright and full of sunshine, just as soon as the sun comes up. I often watch it come up from bed now. It’s all very pleasant to wake up to and makes it much easier. I’ve naturally been tired after working hard all day and content with going to sleep at night, even if I didn’t get any “me time”. I’ve also felt much better in this house, health wise, than I’ve felt in a long time and that helps as well. I feel like the insomnia was also tied up in health problems.
In the past I’ve given myself a self-imposed bedtime to try to aim for. Sometimes that helped.
thanks
i am trying to get close to a 1030 bedtime for myself to start. i think i have gotten myself so worn out that i should be able to pass out if i will just lay down… but i think that your statements about getting up earlier makes sense as a way to shift patterns. (i am thinking – i know i can make myself get up, not so sure i can just will myself to sleep). so, will give it a go with more light in the room in the mornings and trying to view waking in a more positive light- thanks for your observations!! i am so glad that you are feeling better health wise in your new space~
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