*I want to buy books.

A while ago, a very lovely and generous blog reader sent me two big boxes full of wonderful books! Lots and lots of delightful homeschooling books, as well as some books for the kids and a couple of other things thrown in as well. I felt so absolutely spoiled by all of that, that I honestly haven’t felt the desire to buy a single book since. I do, however, still take advantage of our fabulous inter-library loan system, which has got to be one of the greatest creations ever.

*I want running water.

No luck on this one, and it’s probably still several years off. We are however, in the process of designing a system to harvest rainwater, to at least give us a bit of washing water.

*I want walls and doors and to be far, far away from shiny foil.

No walls of the sort that I meant yet. But most of the foil is gone. And it no longer feels like it’s closing in on me.

*I want to see my husband, to share a bed with him again, to have time together.

We have more time together these days, in the evenings after the kids are in bed. We will hopefully be moving into our new bedroom *together* sometime within the next month.

*I want more room.

I have more room. Lots more. It’s still on the snug side, by most people’s standards, but I love it.

*I want a mirror.

I have a mirror.

*I want big gardens.

I have bigger gardens and they are lovely.

*I want to go out without having to worry about getting sick.

I’m still not able to do this without any worry, but I am much, much healthier then I was, and there are so many more options open to me now that were entirely impossible before.

*I want to go visit my extended family.

I’m in the process of planning a trip down there this summer. It will be our first time seeing most of our family in over 4 years (Elijah was younger then Galen the last time we were “home” and aside from my parents and sisters, no one, including Steve’s parents have even met Galen). I’m a little scared, it will be the most dangerous trip I’ve taken, health-wise, since getting sick, which is what has kept us from going all of these years. But I really think I may be strong enough. And the thought of getting to see everyone again, just brings tears to my eyes.

*I want to create the perfect play-space for my kids.

I do not have the perfect play-space for my children, but I do have a play-space for them, with huge windows and well chosen and lovingly made playthings. And it will be beautiful when it is done.

*I want lots and lots of beautiful yarn.

Well come on, I mean, that’s just a reasonable response to the amount of gorgeous yarn in the world…

*I want clothes that make me feel sexy.

I make better use of the clothes I have and make other little things for myself here and there.

*I want the wedding that we never had.

I think I’ve come to terms with never happening. I actually wanted to have a hand-fasting ceremony to renew our vows. I just have such a craving for ritual and honoring what is important in life. But honestly, Steve has no interest what so ever in ritual and while he would do it for my benifit, it probably wouldn’t mean much to him, and so it would likely end up a disappointment to me as well.

*I want a couple of hours to myself.

I’m not feeling so strained and over-whelmed these days.

*I want for our roof not to be leaking.

It still leaks. I’ve somehow managed to stop thinking about it!

*I want my cat.

I still miss her. She’s still at the old house.

*I want to have my teeth/TMJ taken care of

I had three of my wisdom teeth out and it seems to have helped a lot with taking some of the pressure off my jaw. I would still love to have this corrected sometime, but it no longer feels urgent.

*and all of my other medical bills paid off.

No chance of that happening any time soon.

*I want to know what to feed my kids to keep them well.

This is still a huge struggle for me. We do know that food affects there health issues without a doubt, but we’ve yet to find the right combination for optimum health.

*I want fun. I want laughter and joy.

I have these, when I let myself.

*I want a dresser to store our clothes in.

Thank you IKEA.

*I want beds for the kids.

Thank you, lady selling bunk beds for cheap on Craig’s list.

*I want to take yoga classes and learn to spin on a wheel.

I took yoga for a bit at our local library, but classes are on hold for the summer. I’ve recently started up my practice at home again. I haven’t learned to spin on a wheel, but I did learn to weave this year! There is time yet for the rest.

*I want to go on vacation. I want to have friends.

See my last couple of posts on vacationing with friends.

*I want to have hope.

I think I have hope.

*I desperately want more babies.

Judging from this bulging belly of mine, this one will be mine as well. And while I had planned an entirely different way of announcing it, this seems quite right.

*I want to spend more time relaxing and enjoying the babies I already have.

There is never enough time, not in the whole world, for this. But I keep working for carve out spaces where ever I can.

*I want a camera that works.

It requires a bit of scotch tape, to hold the batteries in, but otherwise, all is well.

*I want to get enough sleep and be totally well again.

I’m sleeping a lot better these days and I feel like I’m on my way to getting well.

*I want for my house to be safe.

I think it is.

*I want to know for certain that my children are healthy and well.

I think they will be.

*I want an actual bathroom and an actual kitchen.

Well, I now have a stove and a refrigerator. It’s a start!

*I want to go to a concert.

No concerts lately, but we were at a sing-a-long pot-luck featuring two troops of Morris dancers performing a fertility dance for a friend’s farm last night. And that was certainly an interesting night out!

*I want to go out and dance.

I stay in and dance more.

*I want more money and more time and much, much less stress.

More money, I certainly can not claim to have. Much, much less, is more accurate. And you are likely to be seeing posts on budgeting and the like in the future. I have a bit more time, now that I can cook up here. And less stress as our situation improves.